yellowallet

"gotta have roots, before branches.
to know who i am, before i know who i wanna be"
-room for two.

these words have been haunting me for the past few days. after being stuck in books and memorizing notes for the past few months have kept me thinking, where am i?

things kept on piling up on me. like sands being thrown at you while u were lying down.sands heavy enough that could bury you. blinding you out of light. those knowledge passed down from our lecturers, like books in the library. don't know where they begin and where they end. like a house without a family, i feel empty with all that i had. how did i end up here? these songs that ive been listening to, how can i ever explain my choices?

today, ive decided to let it go. not waiting for my pseudo-holiday to end because waiting, will lead to no more than further nothing. imagine building a bridge that is empty of its floors. start afresh from nothing and begin piling up a new set of bricks. bricks that ive made them myself. that eventually became houses that i snuggle within comfortably. to be able to explain myself and my choices. this is all in pursuit of myself. the real me. hiding in the shadows, never surfacing. it is there but never fully seen.

p/s; its cool to have no title.