near orgasmic movies.

imagine a point in life where you felt like everything falls into place, your problems finds its solution. peoples in your life fits into their best behavior for the day, making you breakfast, random people saying "hello" to you while you were on your way to work. you felt at ease, statuesque near the wooden framed window. Staring into the skies, how the blow of breeze calms you perfectly, how it brushes you through the face. even if for just one second,the wheel stop spinning, you stop moving, suddenly plunging yourself into the depth of what was as if satisfied and felt like being at the peak of your life.

imagine at one point,everything falls into place like how it was supposed to be. No chain of regrets, no formation of anger. stares into nothingness,as if the world isn't a living hell. you,your self satisfaction is all that matters. And when the long hand stroke slips away from its vertical mark, directed our eyes onto the first dot clockwise after, everything changes. Just a sudden fall of everything under the realm of gravity's pull, literally falls. plunging towards the very soil that held itself high in the first place. pulling every brick that tier up that 110-story building, ordering it to collapse. with you in it. how would you feel?how would you reacted?would your life just simply flashes in front of you? not knowing who or what causes incident.

how about we change the setting. what if you were the spectator. it doesnt matter who you are but yeah, your love one is in the collapsed building. how would you react?would you cry?would flashes of the memory you had with her travel through your brain as you try to cling on as much as possible. as you saw the collapsed building submitting towards gravity, you hoped that for one second that the scene you have just witnessed wasn't true,that this do not happens. as your heart continues on screaming NO,NO,NO, reality continues on to play by the second.

death do not confuse me, well most part of it anyways. my religion taught me well on that, but at the moment of death, that one second that became the boundry between living and dying, that confuses me. how would i have reacted. how should i reacted. what do we actually do on the verge of death? for example if im the guy in the collapsed building, would i cling on to whatever possible or just let things the way it is, following the pull of gravity,let it take my hand instead. and when facing someone else's death, am i apathetic if i decided to stay strong,not choosing to weep my fluids out?

p/s;ignore this post,this is what happens when you find yourself stuck,watching heartaching movies that suprises you,giving you goosebumbs.and yess, i have the tendency to overthink things, applicating it to my booring & pathetic life. *yaaawn*